Tuesday, November 21, 2006
hellos. its been almost a month already. its so fast and next week's the band camp and followed up by SYF auditions. arghs! im afraid im going to screw the audition up just like what happened the last time for the fantasia audition. time flies. and im already thinking about stepping down as a sec4 senior xD and how nice it would be when i come back as an alumni to perform with the 'juniors' for fantasia 2009 maybe. hahas
wahooo its 49! forty-nine!!. anyways, havent been able to enjoy the holidays. when the year end concert is over i'll have to complete all my homeworks. urghs crap! theres still english and maths. oh i cant be bothered. WHY homework!! its a year end HOLIDAY. sighhh. i hate school. sometimes i just feel like quitting. hate this thing about persistance. urghs!
i feel awfully tired. its not just the usual 'tired'. im getting sick of all these. i hate this student life. arghhsss! how i wish i could just end it all. why does god have to make us stupid when we came into this world. i think being an animal would be much more relaxed than human. at least all they need to learn is the basics hunting skills. or learn how to fly. or just stand up and learn how to graze on grass. no need for intelligence. urghs. hate this life.
how long more do i have to bear with all these? i dont think i can handle it much longer. im goin to collapse. and by then everything will be resolved. no more problems. sighh. hopefully i dont become a human again after this life. a human's life is too stressful. with all the responsibilities. and having to see idiots walking around in this world everyday. such as
people who smoke. i dont want to die of lung cancer. i want a natural death. not like them who want to die unnaturally. urghs i just want a peaceful life. i think its too much to ask for. thats pathetic.
just pathetic.
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